Familiar (?)

It's about knowing a person but not really. Pretty confusing, huh? =D

I mean you become acquainted with somebody may he/she it be, but no, when you think again, you don't even have at least three things to describe that person. Or when you think again, you become confused because in the first place you don't know he or she. So how can we tell if we really know a person? (sounds easy to answer, right?) 

And again, how do we know that we actually know them?

Just thinking about it every time is hard. Haha. As for me, I used to have little sleep because I love to think about this. Thinking and reliving things in my head give me a lot of ideas about a person... thinking about the memories I have with them, their logical sense about issues, opinions or even the "No Reaction" reaction. =) These things give me a hint on how well I know a person. But sometimes they don't, they just play in my head and confuse me. hahaha. But I don't regret doing it either, because, this sounds weird, but...., I feel closer to a person through this effort, though it's oblivious to him or her. 

Some just let that status/level of 'knowing that person' stagnant, including me, of course. =) No one dares to take it to the next level. I don't know, sometimes I think maybe both of you don't care that you just maintain acquaintances and not deepen the familiarity. But then again, it's just maybe both sides (A and B). Or maybe just A doesn't want at all to be familiarized with B and  B is just waiting to be opened and is very willing to be known to A.

On the other hand, there are instances that it's very overwhelming because people just open themselves to you. Even the one whom you think is the least to do it. (Ha! They got me there and it's shockingly cool to be a confidant)They just pour out who they are, what they're going through, what makes them happy or what has been going on in their life. And this part right here is what's familiar.... You become familiar to the deep personality of somebody, your awareness of them increases, you become co-owner of their secrets and they trust you, without any second thoughts, to keep it. You become part of their lives, you share interests, you simply matter,, your views and issues....And you might not notice it, or you might have difficulty comprehending what has been going on, or you might find it hard to accept, but your protective walls are breaking down....and you are opening little by little to that one person or maybe two or three persons who trust you... and you do the exact same things they do to you just because they are familiar to you, because eventually, they will matter to you and you will give your time to know them more.. 

But you know, when we already have an 'assumption' about someone, that familiarity we thought becomes destroyed..., by us, without confirming it. We close ourselves and let them stray in our fence, we don't open up even if they're already banging the door just to get in. And then we're back to zero...And this could go both ways.. we may be very open and transparent to them, and for some unknown reason, they will still shut us out...

Because we don't know people until we actually know them....

Probably Only Ten Percent

So yeah this post has been stored in my head for almost a year now and I haven't had time to write this until now.

It's about when you have a lot of acquaintances and you noticed that only a very little (ten to fifteen percent) of them really care about you, notice you or just curious about you. These few people, you know, they are the ones who give effort---just a very small amount of effort to know you, to discover how you react to things, how you handle things, what would frustrate or hurt you, what would make you laugh or what, in that 'near friendship' stage, would be the familiar things you can have and share. They may not be there or you may not be together all the time but you know they care and they just don't show it regularly. They give time to know you a bit more every time you are together or in one place.

So what are the other 80 or 85 percent doing considering that you are known to them and they to you? Can't rally say, but I sometimes think that most of these people don't give a damn about you, what happens to you, what you think (ok so how can they care about what you think when they don't give even a little time to know you?), how you doin', etc., etc...

It's inevitable, they are just there in your life, loitering but not really mattering? Hm we might want to think about that again. Because at some point we can't really tell if a person should be out of our lives, because at some point, they matter...and we can't just toss them out of your life even if they don't matter to you or you to them.

Half of that larger part, maybe half or dots? (up to ye. =)) are people who don't know you but say a lot of things about you, either gossip or truth, negative or positive, they are very busy speaking about you but they barely know you or vice versa.

So kudos to the ten percent...and the rest, just hang in there. It's too early to say and decide in this life. =)