Yehey!

I have already transferred my old notes here. So... Hmm.. I think I'll begin posting new ones next week. =)

Bye for now!
God bless! =D

Sir Caday. Thank you po. T.T

written: March 23, 2012

“Gusto niyo ba yung super-mega-ever bongga na seminar?”-Dr. Simon Caday

Tumawa kami.

                Isa ang linyang ito sa mga bagay na kinatutuwaan ko sa klase niya. Siya yung professor ko sa Special Topics subject na ang pinag-aaralan ay Development Communication. Hindi siya ganoon kkadalas pumasok pero nagpapaliwanag siya sa amin kung bakit siya aabsent. Unang absent niya ay hindi ko makalimutan, field trip daw ng anak niya. Ang cute di ba? =)) May glimpse na ako kung anong klase siyang tao sa simpleng dahilan na yun na in-effort-an niya pang sabihin sa aming mga pawang estudyante niya lang.

Simula noon, inspired na ako laging pumasok kahit na ang aga-aga ng klase. Sa twing papasok siya sa room, lecture agad kahit na naglalakad pa lang siya sa aisle, at pag nagsalita na siya, natutulala na ako, kasi naman, madami pa akong hindi alam sa development communication (may ganun pala? =D) at napaka-inetresting ng mga pinagsasasabi niya. Hindi lang iyon, pag nagdidiscuss na siya, may mga salita akong naririnig na hindi naman nagagamit sa araw-araw, napapa ‘shocks ang talino talaga ni Sir, nosebleed’ na lang ako sa kung sinuman ang katabi ko sa klase, o kung wala akong katabi ay sa tao sa likod ko sinasabi---para lang mapuri ko siya. Sa isang three-hours na session, minsan ay late si Sir, pero kahit na late siya eh malaman pa rin ang mga sinasabi niya na puro tungkol sa, syempre, development communication. At pag nasa peak na siya ng dicussion, pag may pinapaliwanag siya na hindi niya mahanap ang tamang salita, ang sinasabi niya ‘may mga kemberlu-kemberlu’, halakhakan na naman kami sa tuwing sasabihin niya ang ‘kemberlu’. Tapos pag naman nagkamali siya ng nasabi, sasabihin niya ‘pardon me’,--at mabilis ang pagkakasabi niya na parang ‘pardmi’ na lang ang naririnig ko---na madalas kong ginagaya sa dahilang hindi ko masyadong maipaliwanag,  ‘pardmi’. =). MInsan din sa super dami ng sinasabi ni Sir ay napapapikit ako sa antok dahil nga ang aga ko nagising, pero hindi ako makatulog dahil ayokong may ma-miss sa mga sasabihin niya. Kaso naman nung napuyat ako at may exam sa kaniya eh nakatulog ako, pero natapos ko pa rin. Ang exam na iyon ay isa sa pinaka hindi ko makakalimutan na test, essay type yun at marami siyang pinapaexplain. Ang isa pa na t-in-est namin sa kaniya ay yung multiple choice na ang saya saya dahil nung chinecheckan na namin yun ay iniiba ni Sir ang accent niya habang tinatawag niya ang mga apelyido namin para sabihin ang scores. Tawa pa kami ng tawa noon dahil ang kulit ni Sir. At kada magtatapos ang klase namin ay lagi siyang naglilead ng prayer na super nagthe-thank you siya kay God para sa lecture namin.

Noong magkakaroon kami ng seminar sa kaniya ay marami akong palpak bilang overall in charge, na super nahihiya na ako sa kaniya dahil nga may mga kulang. Puro ‘pasensya na po’ ang sinasabi ko sa kaniya pero kahit isang masakit na salita ay hindi ako nakarinig sa kaniya  o kahit ang mga kaklase namin. Hindi ko sigurado pero hindi ko pa nakitang nagalit si Sir. At hindi ko rin alam kung anu man ang dahiln niya kung bakit laging malumanay at magaan ang mga salita niya kahit na minsan ay talagang hindi na nakakatuwa ang klase namin. Noong nagtetext ako sa kaniya for final instructions para sa seminar ay natagalan bago siya magreply, at nakitext lang siya sa isang number at sinabi niyang wala siyang load at hindi siya makakapunta sa school dahil ang kasambahay nila ay hindi pumasok. Natuwa na naman ako, Ang effort naman ni Sir para i-explain yung reason niya. At noong maipasa ko ang report ng seminar sa kaniya, bilang huling requirement namin sa kaniya, hindi man lang sumagi sa isip ko kahit kakapiranggot na huli na iyon. Hindi.

Noong myerkules lang ay katext ko siya, tinatanong ko kung pwedeng magpaprima ng clearance sa kaniya. Hindi kami nagkita noon dahil sa magulo ang schedule. At ngayong byernes nabalitaan kong inatake siya at pumanaw na. Nasa jeep ako ng mareceive ko ang text tungkol du’n, medyo natulala ako. Paano? Hindi nga? Hindi ko alam kung tatanggapin ko o tatanggapin ko, syempre may choice ba ‘ko? Kahit hindi ko tanggapin mabubuhay ba si Sir? Hindi. Katext ko na ang ilang mga kaklase ko tungkol doon at pinipigilan kong umiyak. Marami na akong nabalitaang prof o teacher na namatay pero ito, iba ‘to, pagdating ko sa bahay ay dumiretso agad ako sa kwarto ko at doon ako humagulugol at ngumalngal ng ngumalngal. Ang pagiyak ko na ito ay isa sa pinakamatagal na pagiyak ko. Hindi ako basta basta umiiyak ng husto pero sa pagkawala ng teacher ko na ‘to ay nagawa ko, hanggang ngayon ay gusto ko pa ring umiyak, at sa mga susunod na araw na maaalala ko siya, alam kong laging mangingilid ang mga luha sa mata ko sa tuwing maiisip ko siya.. Hindi ko pa rin masyadong tanggap. Nalulungkot ako dahil hindi man lang ako nakapagpasalamat sa kaniya ng personal, nakahingi ng tawad sa kaniya dahil minsan nga ay palpak ang klase namin. Hindi ko na iyon magagawa.

Photo Credit: Aerin Kai Buhay

Oo nga pala, salamat sa CMC na binoto nilang maging development communication ang pag-aaralan sa Special Topics, dahil kung hindi, baka hindi ako naging estudyante ni Dr. Caday. Isang napakalaking karangalan sa akin na naging estudyante niya ako.

Awed by Your majesty, my King

I dont know how to start this letter pero gusto ko talagang gawin 'to., yun! alam ko na! Lord super salamat sa lahat-lahat ng bagay na ginagawa mo para sa amin, sa akin, sa buhay ko at sa lahat ng nasa buhay ko. sobrang salamat po talaga Lord. Sobrang thank You sa iyo, sa pagmamahal Mo at sa lahat lahat ng mga nakakaamaza na bagay tungkol sa Iyo---lahat naman ng tungkol sa Iyo ay nakakaamaze, wala nang hihigit pa sa Iyo, sa kaligtasan na ibinigay Mo, sa buhay, sa talino, sa galak, sa kapayapaan na hatid Mo. Wala na. Salamat sa pagplano ng buhay ko na punong puno ng kagalakan, salamat sa lahat lahat talaga, hinding hinding hinding hinding hindi ako magsasawa na pasalamatan ka gamit ang buhay na ito. thank You. at patuloy mo kaming inilalayo sa tukso, sa kasalanan, salamat sa patuloy na paglilinis ng pagkatao amin, salamat sa pagtubos sa pagkatao namin, Lord. Hinding hinding hindi ako hihiwalay sa Iyo, salamat. Maraming salamat, hinding hinding hindi ako mapapagod at magmamaliw na magpasalamat at maghayag at magpraise sa Iyo. Thank You!!!! Ikaw lang nakakaalam ng galak na nararamdaman ko, bahala ka na sa buhay na 'to, hinding hidning hindi ako mangangamba sa kung anuman ang dala ng bukas dahil naniniwala akong Ikaw na ang bahala du'n, gawin Mo kung anong gusto Mong gawin sa buhay ko, naniniwala ako na punong puno ng pagibig ang darating na mga araw, salamat talaga sa lahat; sa pag-alay ng buhay Mo para iligtas ang isang katulad kong tao lang, isang mere human na may pakealam ka, minamahal Mo, pinasasaya Mo, pinatatahimik Mo, pinagaling Mo, iniligtas Mo, lahat naaaa. Maraming maraming salamat. Kulang lahat ng kahit anong pwede kong gawin para bigyan Ka ng papuri, ni hindi ko nga alam kung gaano kataas na papuri ang nararapat sa Iyo sa sobrang kadakilaan Mo, hindi mo inaalala ang lahat ng kasiraan ko, hindi Mo binibilang ang mga kamalian ko, tinutugon Mo lahat, lahat lahat, hindi ko na alam ang susunod na sasabihin sa sobrang pagkaamaze, ang pagibig Mong dakila ang dahilan kung bakit ako nabubuhay, Thank You. Ikaw ang lahat-lahat sa buhay ko na 'to. hinding hinding hinding hinding hindi ko kakalimutan ang lahat ng sinabi mo, lahat ng tungkol sa Iyo, paninindigan ko---patuloy kong paninindigan ang salita Mong walang kupas, hindi Ka nagbabago, hindi Ka nagsasawa, hindi Ka nagbibilang o nagiipon ng mali, kahit kailan hindi Mo ako sinumbatan, hindi Mo kahit kailan ipinamukha sa akin ang mga pagkukulang at pagkakamali ko. Maraming maraming salamat sa walang-hanggan Mong pagmamahal, Lord, thank You at ginagawa Mong okay lahat ng bagay sa akin at buhay ko/namin. Salamat, maghari Ka----patuloy Kang maghari sa mga buhay namin. Salamat sa patuloy na pagpapakita sa amin kung ano ang nais Mo para sa amin, walang hihigit pa sa nais Mo. Wala akong ibang hahangarin kundi ang ma-please Ka at sundin lahat ng gusto Mo. Mahal na mahal kita higit sa lahat, pero syempre wala nang hihigit sa pagmamahal Mo. =)))) Salamat sa pagdala sa akin sa kung nasaan ako ngayon----sa Iyo.

-Jan. 7, 2012

A note written in my head

I was blinded by darkness, clouded with wickedness and foolishness. Poisoned and hurtful words were my only escape and hatred and anguish were my comfort. I didnt care if I hurt people. I was drunk by insecurity and envy. Anger engulfed me. Worries and panics became my companion. Darkness was my best friend. I didnt forgive, I held every bit of anger inside of me until I found comfort in it. I thought it was normal for humans to feel this and that bitching around is fun, but I was wrong. I was always angry and I didnt care if my emotions burst. I thought that hurting someone you love is alwyas fine. I thought that there is no light. I even thought of darkness as light. How wicked. I hid in the shadows of wrong of cheating, of lying, of shouting, cursing. I thought that total forgiveness is impossible, that grudge is normal to hunt people and eat them. I thought that I will live with asthma in my entire love. I thought that there's no cure and that it will be with me forever. And so I thought. 

I thought that there was no way out and this was something inevitable and uncontrollable and that there's nothing I can do about it. I thought that my entire life will go like this. I felt normal, doing these things.

I thought that at this age, love will never be made perfect. I thought that love is jealous and possessive. I thought that friends should please each other. But then one day I decided to seek God, seek and seek until my eyes were sore from my crying but giving up in seeking God didnt cross my mind. He found me and showed me the light through His love which is Jesus. The one who made love perfect. who saves every little detail of this life, who makes all things work together at its best, who loves me more than anyone does, who cares for me a lot, who redeemed my soul and my whole being, who never lets me down and hurt, whose comfort is wlays there, whose love extends to the ends of the earth, whose love never changes nor fails, whose love is always perfect, whose grace saves cleanses and heals. He healed all my disease. Now I can do everything without getting dead-tired, eat and drink even the ice-cold drinks because I know that Im healed, and I beleve it 'cause it's written. And I made Hm my strength to go on every day of this life. The light of forgiveness now conquers me, same with love and faith. Worry and panic are out of the way, hatred and envy, too. Happiness surrounds every waking hour of my life. Excitement to live another day in His presence is my motivation to live this life. Instead of seeking joy from humans, I found out that the fullness in seeking God's joy is incomparable, His joy became my strength and it weakens me whenever I do something that is against His will and commandments, it is now my weakness to hurt people and curse them.

I realized that love forgives all offenses; it was never jealous, that it is perfect if God is at its center. And that God's praise should be sought above all.

-a sinner's soul redeemed and put right in the Father through Christ.

The Lord should be praised forevermore.

I am what God says I am. Thank God for this life, I will never be the same.

-Nov. 26, 2011

Such mind set?

‎"di bali sana kung ung lalaki ang nanloko, eh hindi eh. siya (babae) eh"

-narinig ko lang. =)

Man's POV: Paano naman kaming mga lalaking hindi nanloloko at stick to one? Ganito rin ba ang tingin sa'min? dahil lang sa lalaki kami? Tama bang gawin mong dahilan na lalaki ka kaya natural lang na manlolo ka? Hindi ata. Mahal mo ba talaga? baka hindi.

Man 2's POV: Eh nakakasawa na eh, araw2 na lang hindi na kami magkasundo, saka hindi naman niya ibinibigay yung gusto ko eh, nakakpagod, hindi na masaya, saka lalaki kami, natural lang na maghanap kami ng iba, natural lang na magsawa kami sa babae.

Woman's POV: Wow ha. Hindi por que lalaki kayo eh manloloko na kayo, rumespeto naman, saka kung nu'ng una pa lang alam mo na na magsasawa ka sa babae at maghahanap ka ng iba, ehdi sana hindi ka na nanligaw/nag-asawa. Isipin mo ang nanay mo at kapatid mong babae, ano kayang mararamdaman mo kapag niloko sila?

Woman 2's POV: Eh nakakasawa na. Ayoko na. Wala rin namang patutunguhan pag nagpatuloy pa. Nakakapagod, hindi ko na kayang magtiis. Hindi na 'ko masaya. Buti pa si ano, mahal ako, naiintindihan ako, hindi kami masyadong nag-aaway. Hindi katulad niya, mahirap siyang makaintindi. 

POV ko: Hindi makasarili ang tunay na pag-ibig, hindi magsasawa/napapagod kasi hindi nagiipon ng mali ang tunay na pag-ibig. Tunay ba ang pag-ibig mo?

This is what's runnin' in my head right now.

-Oct. 24, 2011

Oo. Nakakalito.

They don’t care.

Yes, they do.

No, they don’t.

Yes.

No, they just don’t.

They do, you just can’t see it.

Maraming bagay akong hindi nasabi, maraming-marami, mga bagay na itinatago ko na lang, o mas magandang sabihing pinadedesisyonan ko na itago na lang kesa sabihin, bakit? Bakit kung minsan naiisip ko ‘to, minsan hindi ko alam kung bakit, minsan naman naiisip ko “eh wala naman silang pakealam eh”, siguro nga, eh paano ko malalaman kung may pakealam sila? Hindi ko rin alam. Wala ba talaga silang pakealam o ako lang ang nag-iisp ng ganun? Hindi ko alam kasi hindi ko masyadong gamay ang takbo ng utak ng ibang tao, hindi ko makuha kasi nahihirapang akong maka-gets minsan, nalilito ako, kaya minsan pinipili ko na lang na wag na lang, wag ko nang ipagpatuloy ang pag-oopen ng sarili ko sa mas malalim na aspeto at pag-iisip kung ano ang takbo ng utak nila, mahirap din naman kasing intindihin ang sa akin minsan, ay hindi pala minsan, kadalasan. Pero ewan ko ba, nag-eenjoy ako na pagnilay-nilayan ang takbo ng isip ng mga taong napapalapit sa akin, siguro depende din sa tao kung sino yon. Minsan nagpapanggap akong walang pakealam pero sa totoo lang meron, ayoko lang ipakita kasi alam ko namang wala lang din sa kanila? Wala lang ba talaga? Baka meron? Hindi ko alam.. hindi ko alam pero kadalasan masaya ako, palatawa, ganun naman talaga ako, pero may isa pang bagay na minsan ay nagugulat ang ibang tao, kapag sweet na ‘ko at ma-senti, oo masaya kapag tawanan, harutan, pero kapag darating na ang oras na andito na ung pagiging ma-senti ko, nagbabago ang lahat, hindi ko alam, nagbabago ba ako o sila? O naninibago sila sa’kin? dahil ba hindi ako madalas ganito? o pinili ko lang talaga ang taong papakitaan ko ng pagka-sweet? Siguro nga, kaunti lang talaga ang atong nag-aattempt at nagbibigay ng best nila para maintindihan ang takbo ng utak ng isang tao, hindi lahat. Pero siguro depende talaga sa kung sino ang taong iyon. Siguro nga.

-Oct. 14, 2011

I don't know how God did this, certainly amazed.

Nasa kwarto ako, nag-iinternet, basa-basa, like-like.. maya-maya tinawag ako ni Mama, may virus daw sa computer.. tiningnan ko.. gusto kong ii-scan pero hindi mabuksan ung ESET, pti Microsoft hindi ma-open, may ngbblock daw.. hindi ko naman ma-activate yung security something kasi kailangan din ma-update yung OS, eh hindi naman yun licensed, at pag na-detect yun ng Microsoft, yari. =)

Try ako ng try na i-i-scan siya gamit ang ESET, ayaw talaga, pati Firefox at IE ayaw mabukas.. 

Conclusion: Navirusan ung PC namin, hindi mabuksan lahat ng programs, Microsoft, Mozilla, kahit windows defender at ESET ayaw mabukas

nagpapanic na ko,  nagpapanic na si Mama, nagpapanic kami dahil pag hindi gumana yung PC, walang gagamitin ang mga kapatid ko, mag-aagawan kami kay Novette (laptop ko).. at posibleng magrereformat na naman, or worst, hindi na talaga gumana ung PC., saka kaka-reformat lang nito.. hindi pwede ito.. sabi ko sa loob ko, Lord alam ko hindi mo to will, hindi ka nagbibigay ng failure, Ikaw ang success ko Lord. Ikaw na po bahala...

tinext ko si Bro. Abet (ung ka-church ko na nagreformat nito dati) para tanungin kong pwede naming mareformat yung PC,, kaso hindi siya makakpunta tonight, so tom pa maaayos.. isip, isip ng paraan kung pano..

Nagpunta ako sa kwarto, dahil nandun ung laptop ko, at kumuha ako ng installer ng Avast at yun ang ipang-ii-scan ko sa PC.. copy, paste.. sa pagmamadali ko, bgla akong nabunggo sa pintuan, tumama yung tuhod ko sa pinto, tumama din yung eyeglasses ko at natabingi, nadiin sa ilalim ng mata ko. I felt weak. I felt crying, tamaan na lahat wag lang salamin ko, kung masisira ito, anu nang gagamitin ko....naiiyak ako kasi hindi ko magawan ng paraan yung PC at naiisip ko na yung sitwasyon kung masira to, naiiyak ako kasi yung salamin ko nasira; natanggal yung lens at wala akong gagamitin.. naiyak ako ng mahina, inayos ni Mama yung salamin ko at Praise God!! naayos, habang nakaharap ako kay Novette at inaayos ni Mama yung salamin ko sa likod ko,, nagppray ako, Lord alam ko hindi Mo to gusto, hindi uso ang failure sa Iyo Lord, please po, patawad kung ganito yung nararamdaman ko, patawad po talaga, Ikaw na po bahala..hindi na 'ko maiinis kahit wala na 'kong salamin, alam ko po ayos ang paningin ko.. Ikaw na po bahala.. VOILA!! "'nak ayos na oh.." sabi ni Mama, pahid ako ng luha at sinuot ko na, konting adjust lang at okay na ulit..

lipat ko na sa PC ung flash drive to scan it using Avast, ayaw talaga.. tawag ako kay Abel (barkada ko), to ask kung paano gagawin ko dito.. reformat, yun ang solusyon, hindi ko matanggap na kailangan ireformat, sinasabihan ako ni Lord na wag kong i-shut down to, wag kong sukuan, wag kong tigilan hanggat hindi nagiging okay, kasi OKAY lahat kay Lord..

..

.. "cge bel tawag na lang ako ha? thank you, thank you, pero di ko to susukuan, kalkalin ko pa.haha.."............click ako sa MS Excel, na ayaw gumana kanina.. ...............naopen!!! "bel.. beeeel... (sort of tili), gumana na, pati yung firefox naopen naaaa. oh Lord, thank You..".. "ok na bel.. ", "system restore mo na din para sure Pong." ok ok.. "tas scan mo..".. ok na, nagthank you pa ko ulit tas binaba ko na, nagthank you ako kay abel ng madami, kasi kahit gabi na, wiling na willing siyang tulungan ako kahit thru telephone lang..

click ESET, windows defender, MS Word.. okay lahat.. OKAY LAHAT. ALL IS WELL. ANG GALING NI LORD. 

a thought that crossed my mind while I was looking for a solution.. "baka na-comatose lang ung PC, tas gigising na siya ulit..", 

Hindi ko talaga alam kung anung nangyari at bglang na-okay yung PC.. si Lord lang nakakaalam kung paano Niya ginawa yun..and I wont mind, really, kung paano Niya ginawa.. in a blink of an eye naging okay yung PC na parang kanina lang ay kinakain ng virus ng buo..

It felt like the PC was being held captive.. and it was not functioning well..and it was trying to control me as well, to panic and lose my cool, and lose faith and hope. But Thank God He didnt let me. He defended me, us, PC.. Thank God.. now here's another thought after what happened.. "parang nanaginip lang ng masama yung PC, tas nagising na ulit"..

THANK GOD. WUHU!!! THANK YOU LORD. NOTHING WILL EVER BE MORE POWERFRUL THAN YOU ARE. You are success and Your love never fails. 

-Aug. 28, 2011

A Glimpse of the Philippines: An Essay

(written July 3, 2011)

Earth is said to be the only planet that has life, yes, life---life of different creatures, which makes it different from the other planets. But now it is being gradually destroyed.

Located on the south-east part of Asia, the largest continent on Earth is the Archipelago of the Philippines, or simply, Philippines. It is a country of 7000 and more islands, which many of them don’t have names yet. Its environment has many facets and some of these are also what I have seen and observed.

The nationality of the people in this country is called Filipino. Patriotism is evident in many Filipinos while there is colonial mentality in others. Filipinos are known for their hospitality. There are traits that really distinguish us from many nations, one of which is being happy despite of the difficulties that we have encountered in our lives, and I have seen this around me, despite the lack of resources and money, when there is an occasion, Filipinos still celebrate. But there are people who are not proud of being Pinoy, then what are they proud of?

Maybe the system of justice is one of the disgusting things here, seems like justice here is half asleep, because when a case is opened and is followed by another, the former is being closed undone. Is it forgotten? Is it? There is also something noticeable in our justice system, if a prominent or a rich person is harmed, they prioritize the case, but if the victim is just a simple or poor one, the case is most likely to be ignored. Maybe because poor people are not able to pay for lawyers. Or maybe they just see themselves very small to be given time and effort. Come on, everyone deserves justice..

Philippines is country that has so many things to be proud of, one of these is the exotic beauty of the places of this country, places that are being destroyed by the people who do not care and do not appreciate them and places whose charm is undeniably captivating,; places that have hidden riches and that represent the uniqueness of our country.

Filipinos are scattered in different parts of the world to work and earn for a living for their families. They work in other countries to sustain their families’ needs and to have a greater amount of money than the amount that they earn here. They take the pain and the risk of being far from their families just to make a living. They even get to work through illegal transactions thinking that it’s the best that they can do. Being caught and jailed outside the country give an irreplaceable impact to the neighboring countries---that the Philippines is not enough for its people. Is that really it? What about God? Does everybody know that God is a god enough to provide everything? What about faith in God? Is poverty the main reason of these desperate measures?  That crime and illegal transaction seem to be the only ways?

This country has its extreme poor and extreme rich people; the rich with a lot of money, clothes, foods, livelihood, and the poor who don’t have extra but only themselves, who don’t have even enough food, clothes, or even a roof to live under. Total luxury and total poverty are the two of the many facets of this country. Rich ones live in a more than one palace-like home, with more than two cars and a lot of maids, with enterprise and huge businesses, these people have enormous amount of money which no one knows if it came from hard wok or stealing, unknown if it came form their own sweat or from others’ sweat. These people who are content and happy with their skyrocketing money---which are sometimes used for gambling, politics, or even assassinations, seldom times used for sharing and helping. Of all the people who have plenty, only few reach out to the poor and give them something to eat and wear; only few have hearts for extremely poor people.

The faces of poverty are spread across the nation, they don’t eat three times a day. They wear tidy and grimy clothes. They don’t have education, and at some time, they are drug users. Also, because of poverty, child trafficking is visible in this country, Many students see prostitution as another way of easy money, they sell their bodies in order to sustain their education and be able to graduate in college. Some children also become rugby boys and they don’t seem to have parents, who are there to guide them. On the other hand, there are syndicates who use their children in drug trafficking.

Poverty is one of the effects of lack of education and discipline and also lack of resources. There are a lot of pregnant teens who cannot sustain their children’s needs. But are these statements enough to summarize the cause of poverty? What about the influence of media and internet and technology? The liberated influence of other cultures? The aggressiveness of teens? Or the picture of fighting parents that distorts the minds of the children? Or the unintentionally-unconcerned parents who do not pay attention to their children’s problems and complaints? Or parents who pay much attention to their work and having a little time for their children instead of listening and fixing their problems? What about unequal distribution and possession of resources and riches?

These poor children want to study as well, but the problem is, schools cant suffice the increasing number of students. And who is to blame? is it about blaming?

The government and its officials are known of corruption. There is a large amount of money but it is not being used for the people but is going into the pockets of some of our country leaders. Some officials have plenty amount of money while some don’t have. Greed and luxury is how people see the government and its officials. They have more money than we can ever think of, that’s why they have so many issues. On the other hand, people judge them based from what the media reveals. People complain about the government, why don’t they follow the law first? After all its not just about the leaders, but the entire people as well. A lot think that the officials are not doing their best, but sometimes looking through helps us see the things we do not see, its all because pessimism and complains blind us.

Another side of the Philippines that is hidden is that it has many remote islands. These islands are unreachable by the government and there are people living in these abandoned islands, but they are not being paid attention to because they are far from civilization. The tribes-people in these islands are rarely visited and helped. They just live there, far from us and we are unknown to them. Their houses don’t have electricity; they don’t have water and education, that’s why people are having multiple diseases at the same time. Because they lack medicine and nutritious foods, they just die of diseases and infections. They don’t know the world here.

In spite of all these things in our country, God is the only powerful refuge that we can have. Nothing’s more than Him. Humans, like us, are not capable of doing such big help like He does. And some people are just not willing to reach their hands, but God is…

Judging someone because of their failure does not help, nor disdaining them. Maybe letting them feel understood might help. Uplifting their spirits is also another help, by making them feel that they can at least do something to lessen their hardships. Sharing what we have is a bigger help. We cant totally blame them for their fate. I’m pretty sure they don’t want poverty, but they just seem to enjoy it because they think that they cant do something about it, or maybe they can. We can blame them because they do not do their part as capable human beings, but blaming them will do what? Nothing. Lets at least be an inspiration to other people and reach them, we may not have much, but we can be a big impact through the little help that we give.

What if we are in their place? What will we feel?

Will we hate those who are rich who don’t want to help?

Will we be happy and content living in the streets? Being bullied by others and beint looked down to?

And what if we have plenty? Will we give? Or just enjoy and not care? Will we reach our hands to them and see what we can do?

Will we be driven by personal motives and ignore them?

will we be bothered that we have so many and there, our fellow human is starving and have not eaten for a week and we don’t do even a little thing to alleviate their hunger?

We just have so much to give and share. We can contribute little by little, not just for our country but for our fellow humans. Is it enough that we pity them? Pitying does what? Nothing.

Staring at these poor people does what? Nothing, neither does smiling at them

Loving our neighbours is the root of all the good things we can do for them. Loving them will drive us to do these things. Before cursing and blaming our government, why don’t we do our part first. Small things count a lot, even if we do not know it, others see what we do, and if we serve as an example for them maybe they, too, will be moved.

People is what makes a nation, we share the triumph of one and we share the failure of one as well. But this is not all about success or failure, whoever succeeds or fails, we are Filipinos, we share the same country and the same nationality, whether we like it or not, we have to like it. If we are not proud of what we are and our fellowmen, then who will be? 

Inept Cowardice

Rizal Avenue is one place that has become part of my everyday life since my first year in college. And one thing that has stricken me is this fat woman who lives under the LRT Line 1 in Avenida St. near Doroteo Jose station. I don’t know her name but I always see her there while on my way to school or to SM Manila and that space there looks like her home; I see her eat, sleep and sit there. She is very grimy. She looks deranged. Her dirty clothes are disorderly worn and her kinky hair is scruffily spread in her cheeks. Sometimes I see her walk around with a lot of foods in her hands and bring them to her fellow beggars and they eat together. But I have never seen one person hands her food or drinks. She also sits in the floor of the sidewalk with her dirty blanket of things scattered around her, and this blanket appears to be her suitcase.

It seems like her presence completes that part of Rizal Avenue. Maybe the people who pass there are used to see her in the sidewalk or in the middle of the street under the LRT Line 1.

The first time I noticed her was when she wore bra and shorts only; she had a different colour of skin, looks like her body is covered with dried cement that day. From that moment on, I find myself looking for her every time I pass by Avenida. And every time I see her, something feels wrong; it feels wrong because I can’t do something to give her a share of what I have.

What interests me most about this beggar is that, she seems happy and contented living and roaming around the busy and noisy street of Avenida. I don’t see hatred, suffering and weariness in her aura, compared to what we see in other poor people’s faces; they look like cursing their lives because of what they are now. Maybe it’s because her insanity has stolen all the sensitivity and feelings she has, or did something happened to her that caused her to be like this? Or maybe she just sees her life’s bright side, or she doesn’t know how to start again with her it.

Because of these things I see in her, I can’t help but feel concern and guilty at the same time, guilty for not doing a very small thing I know I can. Many times I wanted to go near and help her and know what brought her to that fate, but many times I felt afraid too. Many times I’ve planned and wanted but I just can’t do it.  I don’t have enough courage to reach my hand and give her at least a piece of bread or biscuit or maybe I don’t want to give her a little; I want to give her more than that.

This woman is the most different face of poverty I’ve ever seen in Manila, because I always see poor people whose faces blame the fate they have. But her face doesn’t show hatred or blame, she doesn’t seem to hate the world, the leaders and the people in it because of her fate.

I always think and wonder where she came from or what brought her to where she is now. Whenever I think about her, I feel very thankful to God that I am where I am. I always say to myself that I may not be able to give all the things she needs but at least I am able to do my part to lessen the hardships that this unfortunate woman has, but since I haven’t done it yet, I feel incomplete with my thoughts of her.

If only I am brave enough to go down the jeep and hand her food or clothes, this guilt and pity inside of me will somehow be lessened. I know one day I will be able to go to that woman and share with her the blessings I have that will make her feel satisfied, and when that day comes, I will be ready with the things that I will bring to her in the presence of our Almighty God.

-June 11, 2011

I will always be excited

first day

1 week pa lang bago magpasukan excited nako.. excited akong pumasok, magunifrom, makilala ang mga bago kong classmates.. tumawa, tumawa, tumawa, at dumaldal, matuto, matuto, matuto, magrecite, magsulat, magsulat sa steno notebook, hahaha, masaya ang first day ko bilang isang 4th yr college student (WOOOW, hahahhaha), pero nung bandang hapon, may imbang balita akong nasagap, nagpabago-bago ang scheds, magulo, biglang wala na daw kming free day? nakaka-panic, hahaha at may saturday class kami na dapat ay wala naman, may mga prof din daw kami na hindi pa namin nakikilala at ewan, may thesis pa, at wala pa akong groupmates, wala pang topic.. hahahaha BOOM.

biglang naging hindi ko na alam kung ano ang mararamdaman ko, pero habang ako ay nalilito sa kung ano ang kahihinatnan ng 1st sem ko, o ng buong 4th yr ko/namin.. naisip ko, bakit ganito, bumigat ung loob ko na hindi naman dapat, nagrereklamo ako? bakit ako nagrereklamo, bakit ako reklamo ng reklamo, bumigat ang loob ko sa kaisipan na masyado akong nagaalala, ipinaalala sa akin ni Lord ung sa Jeremiah 32:27 na 'I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?' WOW!!!!! HAHAHAHHAHA IMBA. sa isang iglap gumaan ang pakiramdam kooo,

(wow Lord, Thank you po... patawad po Lord... please forgive me for worrying instead of leaving it all to You and trusting You enough, patawad po talaga, In Jesus' mighty name we pray, Amen and Amen..)

oo nga, anjan si God, how great is He, who created all things!!! naalala ko rin ang sabi ng isang preacher na si Bro. Albert Miranda, "your God is bigger than any of your problems, Your Lord Jesus is the highest of all, walang bagay ang hindi kayang gawin ng Diyos", sabi rin ni Pastor Ray Castillo, "walang problema sa Dyos ang lahat ng bagay, Lahat posible sa Kanya, ang tanong, sapat ba ang faith mo na maniwala na kaya Niya?"

wooooooooooooh. naboost ako, tama, hindi dapat ako manghina o makaramdam ng pag-aalala dahil sa mga bagay na ito sa buhay ko, walang ibibigay si Lord na hindi kaya ng isang taong may pananamapalataya.. 

ipinaalala Niya rin sa akin na hindi ako dapat magalala at dapat kong isuko ang lahat nang ito sa Kanya, nakalagay sa 1Peter 5:7 na "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." Matthew 6:25, do not worry about your life,

woooooooooooow talaga Lord,

nakaramdam ako ng pagkaguilty paguwi, kasi nakagawa ako ng kasalanan, ang 'sin of worry' (from Pastor Kenneth Hagin), naalala ko ung book niya na "Casting all your cares".. nakaramdam ako ng kamalian na hindi ako dapat mainis sa mga nagaganap sa buhay ko kaya humingi ako ng tawad, kasi nandyan ang Dyos, ang Dyos ng lahat, ang pinakamakapangyarihan sa lahat, ang Dyos na buhay.. Siya ang magdadala ng lahat ng bagay sa buhay natin, hindi lang school loads, lahat din ng aspect ng buhay natin,, let's rest, let's have a complete sleep and surrender all our worries and anxieties to Him. Let's not worry, because God is there, Let's have enough faith to let Him carry our burdens and He will do things for us. When we leave our worries to Him, let's not bear the burden anymore, let Him.

God is great. Praise God, Siya na ang bahala sa thesis, sa groupmates, at sa buong buhay kong ito... wuhuuuuuu!!!!! 

=)))))

PRAISE GOD!!!!!!

-June 7, 2011

hindi ko alam kung panu ko sasabihin o ieexpress, kaya sinulat ko na lang po at ginawa kong note dito sa fb..

May 18, 2011, Wednesday..

isang araw na ikinalulugod ko ng husto, excited na excited akooo. nagka-count down pa ako ng araw, hahahhaha o kung ilang tulog na lang bago dumating ang araw na ito.. pero lumipas na siya, ganun pa man, naisip ko na, kung pwede lang irecord ang lahat ng nangyari sa araw na ito ay ginawa ko na.. pero ayos lang, dahil sariwang sariwa naman sa isip ko ang lahat ng nangyari.. ang paulit2 na pagtalon natin na dalawang basong tubig ata ang nainom ko at pumasok sa ilong ko, hahhahaha, ang slides na mabilis, hahah, kahit maaraw ay lumalangoy, kahit malakas ang ulan ay sige pa rin, hahahhahaha kaya ayun, ang itim ko.. hahahhaha pero masaya talaga kaya ayus lang...

haaay hindi ko na alam kung panu ko pa idedescribe.. sobrang nagdidiwang ang pagkatao ko dahil dito. swimming, bonding, swimming.. at higit sa lahat ay ang kaisipang ma-wa-water baptize na ko. Sobrang ipinagpapasalamat ko to kay God. isa ito sa araw na hindi ko gustong matapos, hahhaha. Outing na lalong masaya dahil kasama dito ang katotohanang iisang Spirit lang ang nananahan sa ating mga pagkatao, at isang dahilan na rin ay ang pagsama ni Mama at ni payat sa water baptism na ito. Sobrang nalulugod ako talaga, at sa sobrang saya, hindi ko na alam kung anung klase pa ng pagpupuri sa Panginoon ang kaya kong gawin dahil sa araw na ito, na Siya ang may bigay.

Maraming maraming salamat po kay Sis Rica at kay Pastor Ray na instrument ni Lord para sa gawaing ito. at sa lahat.. sa lahat2.. ang saya!! ang saya saya ko!!!

=DDDDDD

-May 20, 2011

This is for Your highness, God. (outpouring)

You are forever

To You I surrender

You're my beloved King

The very reason that I sing

You are everlasting

Forever reigning

Your love is unending

In You I'm living

You have my heart

The whole of me; every part

When I am lonely and afraid

You immediately come to my aid

Your freedom makes me live

Truth and love are what You give

All my praises I offer

while You fill me with power

You're so alive in me

and this is where I always want to be

I dont know why or how

but here are my kness to bow

To sing and shout for Your glory

to praise Your name and majesty 

You defeat insecurity

through Your name's victory

My old self is dead

through the blood that You shed

Thank You for Your grace, You are so much more than these words I say.. You fill me with so much love and joy, You fill me with everlasting love.. I love You.. I love You. I will sing Your praises, I will shout, dance and clap to praise You, I dont want this to stop. I exalt Your highness. You love me more than anyone does. You're so great and You make my heart jump and sing. I thank You so much for revealing Your glory to me, Thank You for revealing to me Your son, Jesus, Through him I have known and met You. I love You. I will always do, I will always be where you want me to be. Thank you for showing me the profundity of Your love. Thank You for Your embace and care, for Your comfort and undrestanding, for Your wisdom, protection.... all. Thank You for the gift of love..Thank you so, so much. You are my strength every day, You lift me up all the time. In my insecurity You remind me of Your richness. In difficult times Your victory drives me to continue. I love You Lord... You lift me up through the fullness of Your grace, your name I praise and lift up. You.. You complete me, you fill me with unending peace. I love You..

-Apr. 30, 2011

AMAZING GRACE =))))

Almost two years ago, masaya ako, kuntento, may mga pagkakataong malungkot din, pero nalagpasan ko ung mga yun. Hindi ako mahilig magbasa ng Bible, pero alam ko na God is love. Tama. God is love, kaso walng impact sa akin ang sentence na iyan noon. Ang alam ko lang, si God, mabait, nagpaparusa, nagbibigay, nagagalit, tagapatnubay, nagpapatawad, hindi nagbibilang ng mga maling nagawa mo at kahit paulit2 ka pa gumawa ng kasalanan, papatawarin ka pa rin Niya, anu pa ba, yun lang siguro ang alam ko sa Kanya noon. Alam ko rin na ipinadala Niya si Hesus para iligtas sa kasalanan ang sangkatauhan. Oo si Hesus, Hindi ko rin siya gaanong kilala noon, pero alam kong ipinako siya sa krus para iligtas tayo sa kasalanan, pero pano, un ang hindi ko alam.. dahil sa pagkamatay niya nailigtas tayo,panong pag namatay si Hesus ay nailigtas na tayo? Pano ba talaga? Ayan ang hindi ko talaga naiintindihan, oo namatay siya, un lang ang alam ko, ipinako siya sa krus. Sa aking matinding pagiisip araw-araw, anu ba talaga ang totoo? Gusto kong makilala pa ng mas malalim ang Diyos—gustong gusto ko, kasi alam kong hindi sapat ang nalalaman ko tungkol sa Kaniya. Hindi sapat ang alam ko tungkol sa kung ano ba talaga ang Diyos, maraming tanong, kagaya na lang ng: Nababawasan nga ba ang kasalanan?  Paano? May magaan at mabigat ba talagang kasalanan? Kung meron, nasa Bible ba? ilan lang yan sa tanong na naglalaro sa isip ko noon. Alam ko na may mga paliwanag sa mga tanong na ito na pawing galing lang sa kaalaman ko, pero hindi ako kuntento sa mga iyon, dahil naniniwala akong may higit pa rito.

Wala talaga akong masyadong interes sa pagbabasa ng Bible, kasi may religion subject naman. Pero habang pinagaaralan ko ang mga topics don, parating may tanong na, Bakit? Paano? Saan binase? Nagdadasal din ako lagi, sana po… sana po.. please po.. pero sadyang may kulang. Oo kulang ako sa kaalaman sa salita ng Diyos, dahil puro aklat sa school ang binabasa ko.

Ang alam ko noon sa pagibig, ung gagawa ka ng mga bagay para sa isang tao, pagibig na ba yon? Para sa akin noon, oo. Pag ung kinikilig ka, lagi mo siyang naiisip, namimiss, pagibig na yon para sa kin.. ung hindi mo siya gugustuhing masaktan, hindi mo siya lolokohin, hindi ka magsisinungaling, ibibigay mo ung makakaya mo, gnun lang, pagibig na siya sakin noon. At naisip ko rin na napapagod at nagsasawa ang pagibig. Iyon ang alam ko…

Sa aking pagninilay-nilay at paghahanap ng sagot sa mga bagay na nais kong mabigyan ng paliwanag, nagdesisyon akong hanapin muna at kilalanin muna nang mas malalim ang Diyos. Ngunit paano ko makilala ang Diyos? Dahil sa aking uhaw na pagkatao ay nagpasya akong umattend ng isang Bible study, at doon ay nagbukas ang pintuan kung saan makikilala ko ang Diyos, pero paano pa rin? May tagapamagitan ba? Oo meron, natutunan ko na si Hesus ang tagapamagitan. Wow!!! At nabasa ko rin yon sa Bible sa John 14:6, at sa verse 7 din.. Ngayon ko lang nalaman, tagapamagitan pala namin ni God si Jesus. At mismong nong araw ding iyon ay tinanggap ko si Hesus, dahil si Hesus ang daan patungo sa Diyos Ama.. Si Hesus ang daan para makilala ako ang Diyos. Mula noong araw na iyon ay ginusto ko na laging makaalam ng mga bagay tungkol kay Kristo at sa Ama. Ano siya at kung anu ang kalalim-laliman ng pangungusap na God is love. Ngayon alam ko na.. at nabuild up sakin ang iisang meaning ng love, at yon ay ang nasa Corinthans 13, para sa akin ang kalaliman ng mensaheng ito ang sapat at pinakakongkretong kahulugan ng pagibig. Pero may mas malalim pa rin, ang pahayag na God is love.. pero anu ba si God para sabihin na God is love.. sa halos 2 years kong pagkakakilanlan kay God, maraming maraming bagay akong nalaman tungkol sa Kniya at tungkol kay Jesus, at maraming maraming maraming bagay pa ang nanaisin kong malaman tungkol sa Kaniya. Araw-gabi ay hinahanap ng espiritu ko ang salita ng Diyos, kaya araw-araw akong nagbabasa ng Bible. Napag-alaman ko sa old testament na ayaw ni God sa idols, at kasama rin pala iyon sa Ten Commandments, sa Exodus 20:4-6, at sa Ezekiel 14:7-8 at 18:5, ang kadakilaan ni God ay nabanggit sa halos lahat ng Chapters ng Psalms at sa mga libro sa OT, ganun din sa NT, isa ang Psalms 136 ang nagbanggit tungkol sa walang-hanggang pagibig ng Diyos, nalaman ko rin na Spirit pala si God, nasa John 4:24..dati kasi, iniisip ko kung anong hitsura ni God, ano kaya ang ginagawa niya minsan, kumakain kaya siya? Nagwawalis? =)))) nasagot na ngayon, Spirit si God.. at hindi ko na tinatanong ang mga bagay na iyan dahil sa sobrang kadakilaan ng Kanyang nature, para sakin ay hindi appropriate itanung ang mga bagay na ito, wala akong kahit kakarampot na karapatan na magtanong, knowing na kakapiranggot na tao lang ako at Siya ay pinakamakapangyarihan sa lahat,. Nakakapangilabot at nakakatakot kwestyunin..dahil syempre Siya ang Diyos, at Siya ang nagmamay-ari ng lahat..(Ezek18:4)

at lalong nareveal ang love ni God noong ipadala Niya rito sa lupa si Hesus.. sa John 3:16..

Kailangang maging human nature din si Christ para mailigtas ang sinful nature ng man. Nasa Romans Chapters 5 and 6.. Inialay ang dugo ni Kristo upang patawarin an gating mga kasalanan at upang pagalingin tayo, sa 1Pt 2 :24..Nahulog na ang sangkatauhan sa kasalanan, at kamatayan ang parusa ng kasalanan, oo lahat ng tao ay mamamatay, pero hindi lang pala iyon literal na kamatayan, 2nd death ang ibig sabihin ng Romans 6:23.. nasa Rev 20:14 din... Pero dahil kay Hesus ay maaari tayong mailigtas sa kamatayan na panghabang panahon. Maaari pala tayong maging righteous (matuwid)  kay God sa pamamagitan ni Jesus. Paano? Kung maniniwala at tatanggapin natin si Kristo, sa John 1:12-13..sa Romans 10:9-10, ang God’s grace is Jesus, Ephesians 2:8-10.. Romans 6:14..

Sa pagkakakilala ko rin sa Panginoong Hesus, ay once na tinanggap mo siya at humiling ka sa Knya, mapapasayo yun agad, basta may pananampalataya ka, sa John 14:13-14.. at sa Mt 11:24.. natutunan ko rin na ipinaguutos ni God na lahat ng tao ay sumamba kay Hesus, sa Philippians 2:1-11

Mula noon ay alam ko na kung ano ang tunay na pagibig, hindi sapat ang note na ito, nasa Bible lahat, lahat-lahat ng tungkol kay God.. at kung gaanoo ka-walang hanggan ang Kaniyang pagibig.. dahil nga ang Diyos ay pagibig, kung gaano kadakila si God, ehdi dakila rin ang tunay na pagibig.. ngayon ang definition ng love sakin ay ang Diyos..=)))) at isa ang sigurado ako, hindi kailan man napapagod, sumusuko at nagsasawa ang tunay na pagibig, kung napapagaod at nagsasawa aat sumusuko.. marahil hindi iyon tunay na pag-ibig...

Redeemer, Friend, Provider, Light, Courage, Armor, Truth, Saviour, Lord, Prince of Peace, Almighty, Protector, Strength, Shelter, Healer, Shield, Most Holy, Glorious, Never-ending, Just, Love, Hope, Faithful, Faith, Victorious, Forgiving, Patience.. Righteous, Merciful----kaunti lang ito sa katangian ni Lord.. haaaay..=))))))

-Apr. 23, 2011

Nothing can separate me from You my Lord.

ill testify, nawalan ako ng 500 ngayong araw, nung nalaman kong nawalan pala ko, i prayed immediately, i prayed na wag pumangit ung nararamdaman ko at wag masira ung araw ko nang dahil do'n, tas pag naiisip kong nawalan ko,wala akong nararamdaman na lungkot or something, wala akong nararamdamang pangi na pakiramdam..honestly that money was for my costume for  our PR presentataion in monday, but God is telling me na wala akong dapat ipagalala. and He answered my prayer even before I asked for it.. evil didnt win, negative feelings didnt penetrate my thoughts and my heart..

i should have felt guilty for being so careless, and thinking and thinking about it will just ruin my day..But i didnt. i didnt feel any of it, even a little.. i swear. i am as happy as i am..and i will always be this way.i i am as joyful as God wants me to be. I always have the joy that He provides.

He never lets situations separate us from Him..

The Lord's peace is in me. no wonder He is the prince of peace... =))))

-Feb 12, 2011

Nothing can separate me from You my Lord.

ill testify, nawalan ako ng 500 ngayong araw, nung nalaman kong nawalan pala ko, i prayed immediately, i prayed na wag pumangit ung nararamdaman ko at wag masira ung araw ko nang dahil do'n, tas pag naiisip kong nawalan ko,wala akong nararamdaman na lungkot or something, wala akong nararamdamang pangi na pakiramdam..honestly that money was for my costume for  our PR presentataion in monday, but God is telling me na wala akong dapat ipagalala. and He answered my prayer even before I asked for it.. evil didnt win, negative feelings didnt penetrate my thoughts and my heart..

i should have felt guilty for being so careless, and thinking and thinking about it will just ruin my day..But i didnt. i didnt feel any of it, even a little.. i swear. i am as happy as i am..and i will always be this way.i i am as joyful as God wants me to be. I always have the joy that He provides.

He never lets situations separate us from Him..

The Lord's peace is in me. no wonder He is the prince of peace... =))))

-Feb 12, 2011

AWESOME GOD 1

From the death of my soul You restore me

From the cuffs of disease You heal me

From the arms of the enemy You protect me

From the chains of worldly desires You redeem me

From death You raise me

From the angry fires of hell You save me

To my Lord and Savior,

My life changes every day.. I will never be the same again.. I won’t be the old me.. I will stay right where You brought me. My heart is where You are. You fill my life. Your love is indescribable, honestly I can’t find the right term to describe it..  Your grace is enough. Your presence completes my everyday life. I don’t want to go anywhere. I want to stay right where You are.. You alone are God, You, alone, are enough to sustain all the things that I need, not just things, but also love, guidance wisdom, hope, faith, forgiveness---everything that this world can’t give. Your blood heals all diseases and pains.. your blood defends me from the attacks and temptations of the enemy.. Your spirit constantly reminds me of Your will.. There’s nothing more I can ask for. I give You thanks.. You have been showering all of Your love. You don’t count our sins. You forgive me without reason. I offer You my thanksgiving. My heart rejoices at all times. There’s no room for sorrow in Your house. I love to rest there all the time.  When I feel like lost, You immediately remind me of Your presence, You always tell me that there’s nothing to be worried about because You are victorious and we have victory in Your name. indeed we have. Your words never change, Your love never fade. Change is not the only thing that’s constant. Your love is, too, same with Your words.. They neither tarnish nor expire. One thing is unlimited, it’s Your precious love.. its beyond reach. O, You amaze me very much.. It’s the best among the best.. I am washed by Your blood. I find joy only in your love.

I was lost, I was so bad and hot tempered.. till I met You, my Savior, my Lord.. my Provider, my shield, protection, reminder, Your spirit fills me. I glorify your name. You brought me to Your temple and feed me.. You’re more than the fine gold.. You provide me faith at all times. You take away my fears and my tears, You clear my mind, You help me see the light and be in the right path. You are my strength to carry on. You tell me that I can do all things in your name’s victory.. your name reigns at all times my dear saviour, I will never turn back.. I will face life with you, I will be where You want me to be.. You show me what is true.. You set me free. You always catch me with the sturdiness of Your arms. You and I became friends, and this friendship is the best of its kind.. I love You . and I will always do. I know I cant fight for You the way You did, but I promise I will continue to give my best and fight for You. You are my resting place, my shelter and refuge.

Thank you for the salvation. Thank You for paying the debt you didnt owe. thank You my Lord for all. right now I ran out of words. I know that words are not enough to praise You--Your highness. My heart is filled with so much gladness.. I jst want to always declare Your love and greatness Lord. My life is different every single moment. Even with smallest and simplest things You amaze me.. You amaze me a lot God. I love to be in Your presence. I love You so much.

=))))) Im excited to sing praises for You. I love You po ulit...

Your child,

Sandra

-Feb 2, 2011

i am cying when i wrote this...because i feel God's courage within me...

there's no point, i will not give up just like that, if i will give up, that means my faith is weak... but my faith is not weak, God makes it very strong, so there's no reason for me to give up and let it go just like that, i wont, i have been praying for it, it is what my faith stands... it will never be shattered whatever happens.. God makes me carry on, in fact He carries it for me... i just have to trust Him and never, ever, doubt Him..i wont worry about t, because God will take care of it, I trust Him with all my heart and strength..He told me so many times that i dont have to worry about everything because He will be the one to handle it..He also told me that He will make everything ok, and i hold tight to His words, 'cause i know, he is the only one i can run to... He is the only one whocan save and help me.. He is the only one who can make this possible and light...He is my victory.. and it is written that God doesnt go back to His words.. He is faithful, always faithful. He is the same as yesterday, today and tomorrow.

God is our strength. He is, so whats the point of being scared if you really trust Him..there's God, our mighty God..who takes care of everything.. there's no point worrying about something or everything.

O God i entrust these to You with all my heart, my only hope is in your hands..I love You my Savior.. in Jesus' name we pray, Amen..   

PRAISE HIM. OUR AWESOME GOD..AMEN AND AMEN

-Dec 8, 2010

filled and thankful...

love is not selfish, never.

In my 18 yrs of existence, I have finally found true love, and that love is not human love.. its God's love, love that doesnt expire or run dry, a love that made Him brought his own beloved son to save us all..love that forgives all sins and when God forgives our sins, He forgets it and never remember it, love that flows unlimited, love that doesnt nag, love that sets us free from worldly pleasures, love that moves mountains and makes miracles, love that brings us closer and closer to HIm.. love that is so big, love where the east and west meet.. love that saves us all, protects us and defends us from our enemies.. love that is eternal..love that drives out fear...

God's love is our shield.. God is our refuge and strength.. God is love....

God's love is true love, how awesome is Your love O LOrd.. how faithful you are, You do not go back to your words, you save us, You enliven us..

God's love can do so much more...

WE PRAISE AND THANK YOU FOREVERMORE..

-Dec. 7, 2010

my life with God

i became aware of the fact that God is not just a god.. He is beyond everything we know.. He is so much more than we think of him.. i just want to do anything in His Name. give my best and offer it to HIm...

the moment i open my eyes, I know there is so much to be celebrated.. I feel very blessed and contented because God fills me with joy.. As much as I can, I pray for all the things that i'm doing.. from the smallest thing like catching a 'mabini jeep' to bigger things that I cant imagine I will be able to do.. It's like my life is so light because all my worries are taken away... I dont feel like there is something big that we have to carry  because I have surrendered it to God..and He will carry us to be successful in it.. everyday is to be thanked for, everyday is made by the lord, I will be glad in it..

My life feels very contented and joyful, the plans that He has for us last forever..

YEAH!!! All good things come from God..

i remember a quote from my church mate.. ''God is a lot bigger than your problem''.. its true, so true.. God is there, He must be our first and last resort for help..

His power surpasses all kinds of powers.

lets have faith in God and in His love, be firm and never doubt....

-Dec. 7, 2010