Familiar (?)

It's about knowing a person but not really. Pretty confusing, huh? =D

I mean you become acquainted with somebody may he/she it be, but no, when you think again, you don't even have at least three things to describe that person. Or when you think again, you become confused because in the first place you don't know he or she. So how can we tell if we really know a person? (sounds easy to answer, right?) 

And again, how do we know that we actually know them?

Just thinking about it every time is hard. Haha. As for me, I used to have little sleep because I love to think about this. Thinking and reliving things in my head give me a lot of ideas about a person... thinking about the memories I have with them, their logical sense about issues, opinions or even the "No Reaction" reaction. =) These things give me a hint on how well I know a person. But sometimes they don't, they just play in my head and confuse me. hahaha. But I don't regret doing it either, because, this sounds weird, but...., I feel closer to a person through this effort, though it's oblivious to him or her. 

Some just let that status/level of 'knowing that person' stagnant, including me, of course. =) No one dares to take it to the next level. I don't know, sometimes I think maybe both of you don't care that you just maintain acquaintances and not deepen the familiarity. But then again, it's just maybe both sides (A and B). Or maybe just A doesn't want at all to be familiarized with B and  B is just waiting to be opened and is very willing to be known to A.

On the other hand, there are instances that it's very overwhelming because people just open themselves to you. Even the one whom you think is the least to do it. (Ha! They got me there and it's shockingly cool to be a confidant)They just pour out who they are, what they're going through, what makes them happy or what has been going on in their life. And this part right here is what's familiar.... You become familiar to the deep personality of somebody, your awareness of them increases, you become co-owner of their secrets and they trust you, without any second thoughts, to keep it. You become part of their lives, you share interests, you simply matter,, your views and issues....And you might not notice it, or you might have difficulty comprehending what has been going on, or you might find it hard to accept, but your protective walls are breaking down....and you are opening little by little to that one person or maybe two or three persons who trust you... and you do the exact same things they do to you just because they are familiar to you, because eventually, they will matter to you and you will give your time to know them more.. 

But you know, when we already have an 'assumption' about someone, that familiarity we thought becomes destroyed..., by us, without confirming it. We close ourselves and let them stray in our fence, we don't open up even if they're already banging the door just to get in. And then we're back to zero...And this could go both ways.. we may be very open and transparent to them, and for some unknown reason, they will still shut us out...

Because we don't know people until we actually know them....