Looking back, just looking

Please tell me what is taking place,

Cause I can't seem to find a trace,

Guess it must've got erased somehow,

Probably cause I always forget,

Everytime someone tells me their name,

It's always gotta be the same.

(In my World)

Never wore cover-up,

Always beat the boys up,

Grew up in a 5000 population town,

Made my money by cutting grass,

Got fired by fried chicken ass,

All in a small town, Napanee.

Memorized it until now. This is the first stanza of the song “My World” from the album Let Go. HAHAHAHA.

By......

Avril Lavigne.

Rings a bell. Loud ring? Yeeeees!

This is the mini poster with the cassette tape I bought when I was in first year high school. Hmm, that was in 2004. Eight years past already, yet I still have it. Well this was the only one left, the tapes were ruined already. Oh I also bought the second album, Under My Skin in cassette tape. =)))

Whenever I went home from school, I used to listen to these first two albums, alone in my room, sitting or lying down, doing nothing, just listening and absorbing what every song has to tell me. I memorized the lyrics, even the back-up, the sounds of the guitar and the drums, even the little sounds like “uhuh” in Complicated, (HAHAHA). Until now I still master almost all of the songs in the two albums. I have also known some songs in the B-roll of the first album, and they are totally great especially “Why” and “All you will never know”. I do not know why, but when Avril changed her style, it did not interest me like it did when her first two albums came out.

I guess the first album informed me about her childhood and some of her experiences as a teenager, as a growing lady with the boys telling her he’d call him but he did’nt. I also used to watch some interviews with her, used to wait for them in MTV, used to buy every song book I see that has her picture in the cover. I even bought the original copy of her “My World” tour, I think it was in New York? =D

Now I can just look back to the days when I used to sing her songs wherever I am, in the CR, in the kitchen washing dishes, or in my room fixing things. It seems long ago but the lyrics and the thoughts of the songs are still very familiar, even the beat. And when I hear them in stores, I can’t help but sing them. Hahahaha.

I was just a kiddo then, trying to decode her songs, now I think I am already old, thinking I was taught by the lessons that life has to offer.

I know the reason why I diverted my desires for her songs, because I focused on worship and Christian songs. That was the main reason, I do not relate to her songs anymore. My interest in music changed so is my interest in her latest songs because my principles and my mind set changed, but I still watch her videos if ever I see them on TV, but not the way I waited for her back then. =)))